i havent come up with a title yet

 

Someone had to live through it

Or dream about it

Otherwise they wouldn’t put it in the movie

I can do nothing but abandon the concept of biological age The more people I pass by or strangers I talk to

Some of them seem 15, or 40 or 70 regardless of how they look physically

Regardless of wrinkles pimples are they brows natural or bleached or shaved

hair dyed curled pink gone laugh lines cry lines

I don’t really like this town but I have two favourite spots. One nearby the church and the other behind the train station

So what I recently do when I am bored at work is imagining different parameters of life that changed someone’s face

Maybe for some people it is obvious and why even think about it as something to think about.

But for me it is something.

I imagined how some knew love without fear and you can really see it on their cheeks

and each time I look at someone’s face I imagine I discover something worth a Nobel prize

or some better award in a less cruel universe

There was this woman yesterday

I will go back to this

I understand the need for calendars but I don’t believe them

In my body September starts on the 16th of August

Someone takes a picture of the church but I am on that picture as well

And the pigeon

In one life I did stand up for sure

And I wrote the best jokes crying

Extremely serious person

So there is this woman coming to the store and she is a bartender in the pub-next-to-our-favourite-pub. She always wear a leather jacket, and look like I used to be a hippie. Yesterday she had a white shirt and linen skirt. She was on her way to the beach to have a swim, she swims once a day.

We talked about swimming suits and how it demands some planning sometimes to take your bikini with you in case of an accidental sea encounter. Then she was like, I don’t mind, people will always stare or ignore you anyways so I just take off everything and run into water and you should try as well. Just do whatever feels good for you. she laughed and show a piece of here underwear, funny cute zebra panties. And we both laughed  again, and we were both 15,

and 500 at once.

And then she wished me this one swim that I need, cause I didn’t swim this summer yet.

Or maybe I did just the water

wasn’t wet and cold?

What else.

Everything.